… deal with it.
It´s true. I don´t think I can.
I´m sorry – am I beeing too random?
Let me slow back a little bit – this will explain why I didn´t post yesterday. And why am I posting so early today.
I´ll be quick and simple before I start crying again. The thing is: yesterday, right after I got home from school (almost 6pm), Mom received a call from my Aunt, who´s a psycologist at the hospital where my Grandpa´s at.
She said she had a serious conversation with my Dad, my Grandma and my Uncle about my grandfather. I mean… he has cancer. He´s been at the hospital for 23 non-stop days right now, and he doesn´t seem to get any better. He feels lots of pain all the time, and he howls all night.
And, apparently, they´ve made a decision. They decided they can´t let him suffer anymore.
From now on, the doctors will give him morphine. And, slowly, he won´t be able to talk and recogzine us anymore… And then…
Oh, my. I really can´t take this. I can´t believe this is happening. I cried for so long, but I don´t think I´ll be able to stop. Not… not now.
He is going to die. Soon.
And yesterday was his last day before starting taking morphine, so me and my Mom went to his hospital at Barra to visit him… To talk to him…
To say goodbye.
Oh, geez. Here we go again. I have to stop crying.
But let me just finish. We spent a few hours there, and that´s why I haven´t posted and why I haven´t gone to school today. We had to sleep over my mom´s father (my other grandfather) house, at Barra – it was too late to go back.
I woke up today at around 9:30am. We got dressed and went back home. Now´s almost 1pm, and I haven´t ate a single thing.
And I know this is not right, but my throat hurts so much… I think I´ll just push myself to have lunch in a couple of minutes.
But anyway. Thank you guys. For reading this, for supporting me… I´m going through a really hard time right now. Again, I don´t know if I can handle this on my own.
Well, those are some of yesterday´s eats…
Okay, this was soooo cute. Mom picked me up at school, and she bought me a small tart frozen yogurt with blueberries and pineapple for me to have in the car. Isn´t she the best?!
“Night-snack” (I ended up drinking about 1/8 of this… But whatever.)
Oh, and in case you were wondering… My visitor pass the hospital.
Well, thank you all again for reading, and for giving me the opportunity to share either good or bad news with you all. You seriously make me happy 🙂
Give it up to the first smiley face of this post. Yaaaaay.
See you guys soon.