I hope you’re all having a great weekend… Happy Thanksgiving to all my fellow canadians (like Susan, Ayla, Jolene…) and congratulations to all my Chicago-Marathoners (Meghann, Leslie, Theodora, Bobbi, Kelly…)!
I’m having a super special weekend. Since Tuesday’s a holiday in Brazil (it’s Kid’s Day!), I won’t have any classes until Wednesday. And, what’s better – Friday is Teacher’s Day, which means another day off!
I’m at Dad’s house right now. I chose to spend the weekend with him instead of mom, since she’ll be alone next weekend (my stepfather will be out traveling). I’m doing this so I can be there to help – taking care of both Lelê and Miguel will be quite a challenge!
Miguel will be 1 (month) tomorrow. He’s growing so fast! I love beeing around him. Newborns are really a blessing.
Anyhow. I’m here to talk about a tough subject…
Case in point: History Olympics.
We went through all four phases… But on the fifth one we were eliminated
And you know what’s worst? I wasn’t even sad about it. No, I wasn’t really upset. I was ashamed.
The idea of telling my Mom and the rest of the family that I had failed was almost unbearable. I was too embarassed.
I considered telling you guys. But, again… I was ashamed. I felt like a total failure. Useless.
Tears came to my eyes, but I ignored them. I pretended everything was ok so I could make my friend (and team-partner) stop crying. It worked.
But then, when I got back home… It finally hit me.
I was sad. It would be perfectly normal to cry if I wanted to.
What really convinced me that “we can’t win them all”, though, was the FoodBuzz’s Project Food Blog.
And what does it mean? That they’re not good enough?
It simply means that other bloggers have received more votes. Maybe only a few more, who knows? But, again – you can’t win them all.
This situation made me realize…
Why should I be ashamed of failing? Everybody does! Nobody’s perfect! Besides, I can always try again next year. Right?
Oh, well. The joys of beeing a blogger =)
Blogging and learning, guys!
I’m so thankful for all the lessons blogworld has taught me… I do consider myself a (part-time) blogger, and blogworld does hold a special place in my heart.
Recovery-wise… It’s been getting easier. Intuitive eating is rough, but I can always count on my Mom to help me, to be there for me. It’s hard to see her eat so little (she says she wants to loose the remaining “baby fat” in her body) and keep eating, but she always encourages me to eat some more, to have some dessert. I’m so lucky to have the best Mom in the world =)
My relationship with Dad has improved, too. He has his defects, but so do I. Each day, I’m learning to love and accept him the way he is.
I’m obviously still struggling to win my battle over ED, but aside from that… You could say I’m truly happy =)
I’ll be back soon – maybe even before the end of the week(I know – two posts in a week?! It’s been too long, hahaha).
Happy 10/10/10, guys! Christmas’s not too far away!